“Are you ready?” This time of year, I hear it all the
time. Ready to go back to work, ready to
meet my new class, ready for the first day of school…. ready for summer to be
over. We teachers are the recipients of
a highly coveted job perk in experiencing this thing we call summer break. The general public can’t wait to hear how we
feel as it draws to a close.
Sometimes I think
we let this sentiment creep too far into our core. We can’t seem to escape the idea that the end
of summer is to be dreaded and NOW is when real life starts kicking us in the
butt just like it does everyone else 365 days a year... {Insert evil laugh from
the last person who asked, “Are you ready?”}
It’s easy to feel momentary dread, but let’s try not to let it take
hold.
Don’t get me
wrong; I love summer break and I’m always a little sad to see it end. But it’s not the only way to LIVE. We don’t have to spend the other ten months
of the year going through the motions, waiting on next summer to roll around,
the way too many people go through the motions just waiting to retire. Every time I start counting down at the end
of the school year, “20 more days!” my husband snaps back, “20 more years!”
(until retires). But what about
today? This year? Now? There
is life to be lived at 22, 42, 62, and 82, just like there is life to be lived
in July, September, November, and even those bleak days in February when spring
break feels like a distant oasis.
My husband is
doing a good bit of work-related travel in the next 30 days, and it made me
wonder if he planned it that way on purpose, to escape cohabitating with the lesson
planning, classroom décor making, paper grading, website updating, number
crunching, calendar drafting freak I tend to morph into throughout
September. I will admit when I heard his
schedule, I breathed a little sigh of relief that I wouldn’t have to feel
guilty working past 9:00 pm, when I should be cuddled up with him on the couch
watching TV. And I’m sure with him gone,
I will spend plenty of nights on the clock, ensuring that I would make minimum
wage if it was all divided out. But his physical
absence makes me ponder the mental leave I tend to take from our marriage this
time of year.
Your life doesn’t
end with the first day of school. If you
have kids, neither should your kids’. I
always emphasize to the parents of the students I teach that homework should
not rule their home life. If it does, I
want them to call me and we’ll work something out. I’m not saying I don’t want them to do their
homework; I’m saying I want it done painlessly in an hour or less so they can
have the rest of the night to LIVE. What
if I followed my own advice? I’m not
sure it’s realistic for the beginning of school to think that I could spend
only an hour at home on school-related activities each night, but it’s a good
goal to have in mind to at least create awareness.
What if we didn’t
put away the novels we were actually reading for FUN this summer? (I feel like I’m in a race against the
calendar right now to finish the 400 page novel I started last weekend because
if I don’t get it done I won’t know how it ends until Christmas break.) What if we picked one night a week to leave
the school bag AT SCHOOL and focus solely on our families and/or friends? What if we packed our weekend plans with fun
instead of just paper grading and planning for the next week?
The first couple
of years I taught, these “what-ifs” were overwhelming to me. I felt like if I didn’t devote every moment I
could to my classroom, it would fall apart.
As time went on, I found out some days it falls apart no many how many
hours you’ve devoted to it, and some of the days you feel the least prepared
come off the most flawlessly. It’s
called LIFE and it was waiting there for me to realize that I can’t control
every aspect of it. All I can do is LIVE
it…every aspect of it, not just the realm in which I’m called “teacher.” It’s all those other moments, year-round,
morning and night, weekends and afternoons, that make me who I am, the best
person I can be- for myself and for those twenty-some kids who call me “Mrs.
Jones” from 8 am til 3:00.
There’s another
school year looming just around the corner.
But it’s so much more than summer’s end.
It’s a chance to keep working toward that balance where we learn to
truly LIVE. Are you ready?
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