September is
perhaps both the longest and shortest month in a teacher’s life. I’ve said more than once lately that this is
an “eight days a week” kind of job this time of year. There simply aren’t enough hours in the
day. At the same time, it’s slipped by
quickly and I’m left shaking my head at all the undone items on my to-do list
(including posting on this blog). It
seems I never feel even close to accomplishing everything I’d like to, either
personally or professionally.
Earlier this
week, I typed an e-mail to a new fourth grade teacher, a friend of a friend,
someone I’ve never met. I doled out some
quick advice at the request of the mutual friend and found myself closing with
these words: “Relax and realize you won’t ever have everything
exactly like you want it. Just do the best you can and enjoy your
students and know that as long as you care, they’re lucky to have you!”
Seems I could stand to follow my own advice. As I close out what has no doubt been the
most hectic week this school year so far, I find myself thinking of
opportunities I’m missing to simply enjoy my students on a daily basis. In the
midst of lesson preparation, parent conferences, staff meetings, and paperwork,
how many times have I overlooked a unique opportunity due to focusing on some
trivial matter in the future?
Whenever I teach
younger siblings of students I’ve taught before, I find myself wondering what
the parents think of me the second time around. I’m always changing (hopefully improving)
the way I run my classroom and I’d say the trajectory of knowing what you’re
doing in any job the first ten years is a pretty steep climb. I always wonder if the improvements impress
the parents or leave them shaking their head at how their older child missed
out. Seems silly, but it’s a trap of
self-doubt I’ve battled many times.
However, today I’m
giving some advice to myself: “Don’t
be so busy worrying about the future or rehashing the past that you miss the
present.” I can’t change the
kind of teacher I was five years ago, and that’s okay. Because you know what? Five years ago me wasn’t so bad… I was doing
the best I knew how and I cared about those students just as much as I care
about these I have now. It wasn’t
possible for me to create a “perfect” year for those students then, just like
isn’t possible for me to prepare enough to make things run “perfectly” now.
The same is true for my personal life. How many times, especially over the past few years, have I regretted the way I've handled a situation? Wished I could go back and have another chance to handle it differently, more gracefully? But of course, that's not how life works. The only second chances we get are next time, not do-overs.
The same is true for my personal life. How many times, especially over the past few years, have I regretted the way I've handled a situation? Wished I could go back and have another chance to handle it differently, more gracefully? But of course, that's not how life works. The only second chances we get are next time, not do-overs.
All we can be is
the current best versions of ourselves.
There’s no need to lose sleep trying to attain the impossible. Just do the best you can. Care about those around you. And relax.
Just a little advice…from me to you, but mostly back to me.